The Flames are Still Rising....

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Just checking in and procrastinating about filling out the paperwork...but, I will do that shortly.

Dropped K off this am. It was fine. I was fine but not overly friendly, just kinda "whatever". He knows I hate him, right now. He bought (or had an extra) me a car seat. I told him thank you, but I already bought one. He took K out of her seat and she cried...she reached out for me. I took her and she just layed her head down on my chest and held onto my shoulders. He didn't seem bothered by it. I let her sit there for a minute while he tried to get her to smile. Then I gave her back. She cried as he put her into his truck. I leaned in, kissed her, told her I loved her and to have fun at Daddy's. This is all so wrong. How could he do this to our family? Whatever. It's done. I really do not feel any love for him anymore. It's a choice I made. I do not want to love him anymore. I do not want to care about his life or him or whether he is happy or not. If it wasn't for K, I would wish that I had never met him. He gave nothing positive to my life except her. He destroys lives. That's what he's good at.

Sorry, venting. I just really do not like him. And, what is with buying me a car seat....hey, how about some food for K or my CS? Why is he doing anything nice for me, why now? He never has before.