Hello I already filed for divorced because he was holding money over my head and I new this way my kids and I were taken care of. We had a pretty good weekend we stayed up Friday and Saturday until the wee hours of the morning playing cards. We actually were intimate last night, the kissing felt good but the other did not it was strange and we both said it was just sex. He went back to work last week and is still staying here when he is home on the weekends. I was going to stop the divorce but I just do not know if I can. I do go to counseling and we went twice but says he will no longer go. I just wish I knew how to walk away. He tells me he cares about me and that him being here is him trying and that he wrote me two letters but he just could not give them to me, I am just not sure where this is going. I am trying to have trust in my faith to lead in the right path. Yesterday we had a function for my son and he is a leader and he told me last night that it made him feel good that I was there and he was happy that I came. I just wish I knew for sure if he is or was having an affair. He still says no that he never would but why do I feel like he is. Mary
