nocode, so sorry about next Friday. I know how you feel. Even though I initiated the D, did the paperwork, found the lawyer, etc, xH caused the actual divorce. Wanted it. Did everything he could to push me away.
About taking the day off and being with your boys, I love that idea. I took the day off work, and arranged for my kids to be elsewhere the rest of the day. I thought I wanted to be alone. Nope. I got home and immediately went and picked them up. We went shopping and to dinner. I wanted to be with them. It wasn't happy, it wasn't sad. It just 'was'. Hug your boys and focus on being thankful that they are in your life.
