what's it gonna take for you to try a real 180? Him divorcing you? By then it may be too late.
And that's assuming you'd still want this marriage, which from the sounds of it, you are starting to view more accurately, with the whole adrenaline/excitement needs he has and how much you'll always worry even if you are "together"...but again, you've supposedly DBd for a long time. I say "Supposedly" b/c real DBing calls for doing what works and NOT what does not work and monitoring results... from what I can see, you are doing the same stuff as before, minus the recriminations of the beginning...
Soooo, what will it take for YOU to do something different? Or are you waiting for him to do something for you to "react" to again? And isn't that part of the problem anyhow? If and when he wants the marriage to work, He'll MAKE it work or he won't. And who the hell wants a half ass "effort" after what you've gone through? I sure wouldn't. Don't lower your standards so much. He'll meet them...
(( j ))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
