Walk Away German Wife (WAGW)

[PortlandDad]

More journaling:
I was IM'ing her today and we were chatting about how the kids were doing, and just family stuff, when out of the blue she asks me, "if we would begin new, what about trusting each other and be honest just the truth counts, is that not what u have been saying?"

To be honest, it completely floored me, because this is the very first time she has ever posited the situation of us being back together. I replied that yes, I believed that we could work on trust if we began anew. She followed up with, "but dont ever say that u never lied"

I said that yes, I did lie about many things in our marriage, but that I was trying to be an honest person now.

She replied, "u lied about loving me. u married me and said u loved me when u did not. that was a big blow"

Ei, Ei, Ei. She is definitely holding onto this issue, or she is making her central excuse. My final answer before we changed the subject was, "I did lie about loving you. but that was a great many years ago. I know that it was wrong when I did it. But I came to love you. When I fell in love with you, I never fell out of it, not to this day."

Backslide, or breakthrough? It was a milestone conversation. The thought of us together again is in her mind, and she spoke it. I'm not doing cartwheels, but the sun was a little brighter today, despite the rain.