The Flames are Still Rising....

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I am terrified. But, I talked to my lawyer friend. I sent him the paperwork H served me with. He said to put everything down....all his missed visits, the fact that he doesn't ever ask for extra time even though he is not working, he doesn't check on her during the week, her coming home with flea bites. He even said to put in there the fact that he was charged with assault and battery years ago for hitting a pizza delivery guy. He got probabtion, but it shows his nature. He said he would look at my paperwork and tell me what to get rid of and what to exaggerate, then file on Tuesday. I hate that I feel like I have to play hard ball. But, this is NOT about H and I this is about KC!!!!! I know that many people believe 50/50 is best for the child. But, not in this circumstance. H just is NOT a parent, he is not putting her first..never has. He would only hurt her if she learned to be like him. I'm sorry, I know that is harsh. But, he is just not a good person...right now. And, I do not see him making any effort to change or be better. So, until he does....I have to protect her.

Last night I worked at a fundraiser for a crisis intervention hotline I volunteer at. I had asked my niece to babysit. I told H to bring her home at 7. He said that he wanted to bring her home later. I said no later than 7:30. She needed to go to bed and I wanted her to have some time with her cousins. This was Tuesday we texted about last night.

So, yesterday I sent him a text "I told niece that you would be there no later than 7:30. Please let her know when K ate last"...... no response. At 1pm I called K's school to make sure he picked her up, he had. So, at 7pm I get a text "I'll bring K home at 8" I said no, that was too late. We agreed on 7:30 so please get her home as soon as possible. He said okay and then brought her home at 8. I know he is pushing the envelope with me and trying to exert his control. This is what he does. So, I have decided that we are going to have to go by the book for a while. Until he sees that he can't just do what he wants.

I have to see him tomorrow for the K exchange. I really have nothing to say to him. But, I am angry about the 50/50 and he knows it. I just hope I don't say anything about it to him...it would just end up being a fight. But, part of me feels like I need to thank him for once again, being a total jerk and trying to take more from me...it's not bad enough that he destroyed our M, our family, he hurt me, he was overly cruel and now he wants to take the most important thing to me....all I have left of my family...KC. I hate him.