I felt the same way about the court's ability to render a marriage null and void. I'm glad I was in court as it ended. You know the amazing thing? The drama ended. A huge weight I didn't even know I was carrying lifted and I felt such calm and peace.
I'd been beating that dead horse (the divorce process/marriage) so much that wasn't even any glue, flesh, hooves, bones left.. just me slapping the earth with my own frustration.
I was the one that held on, clawing with my ragged fingernails.. for what? A man who moved on? A man who moved heaven and earth to be rid of me? A man who'd emotionally checked out years ago? It was me, strangling on a dream as real as fairy dust.
I'd save the day (or include another one) with your children for about 2 or 3 days after it's final. That's when their hugs will mean the most.
Somethings in life just aren't fair... but the best is yet to come!
