Need Help handling affair thats still going on

[kjensen]

Last night was rough-I felt so angry and alone-lots of tears. Worked out this morning and more tears. The waves of sadness and rejection hit me unexpectedly.
So my H is looking for another apartment(his lease for his first one expires July 1). So that makes me think either he's hedging his bets(he'll either move back home or move to a bigger place where the girls can have a bedroom of their own). Of course, in my sad state I suspect he's just planning on moving to a bigger place so that when he divorces me, the girls can spend half their time with him.
He's given me no indication of what direction he's headed with the OW, or his life. I know its probably b/c he has no clue, but it still hurts to see him make moves that take him further away from me. I'm still refraining from talking about the R or A, but my mind is constantly running conversations/questions...
Does the waffling have a time frame-is it part of a stage of MLC?