Today will be a tough day...H will be here to pick up son early as I have to take D16 for senior pics...she is an ambassador and needs to get them done early..
S11 has a game today and after pics I will meet s11 and H at the ballpark for the game...this is one part that irritates me...H will go and be so happy and chipper in front of all our friends and I will get there and he will talk to me like nothing is wrong...grrrr then when we're leaving it's back to the same ol stuff...no contact....which I haven't contacted him either ....I'm just so much better when I don't see or hear from him...cause I'd like to slap that fake smile right off his face..S11's coach knows what's going on, we've talked about how sad it all makes me and he's wondered why H hasn't been to any practices...he used to go to them all, now can't be bothered with them, he has to "work"...all lies.....anyway....coach was talking to me about H and what if he brings OW there and I said, I don't know what I'd do but at this point in time it wouldn't be pretty...he said, "don't worry we got ur back"..they don't understand what happened to H either...I tell them what I think snodderly told me....that the mother ship has come in and kidnapped my H....LOL And he thinks he has it all....
So this person, my H, who meant the world to me and my children, put them first, and everything in our lives has changed to say, "he just doesn't want it anymore", doesn't want to be married, but he still is, not sure for how long but still is..anyway...now is going on vacation with OW, never thought I'd see this day...so he is working alot to make sure he gets his stuff done to go on vacation with her at the expense of his children....who does that? I have a hard time leaving my kids for an evening, or even when son goes with H for a night...I miss him....how does H not miss him? Can you really put everyone out of your mind like that? I'm just curious....I'm really not dwelling on it...i do go about my day cause if I didn't I would really go crazy. Snodderly...you have told me a million times not to dwell....I think I need someone to knock me over the head with a 2 x4 sometimes....it's nuts...they're nuts...or making us think that we are...
So, off to see my beautiful D16 get pics done....she is a true blessing...
doc visit was ok....nothing up front....have to wait for results of everything next week....I'm praying for all good news....and I have to go for a mammogram next week....HUHHHHHH......it's always something....
(((hugs)))
Last edited by Treese; 03/28/0912:53 PM.
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
then when we're leaving it's back to the same ol stuff...no contact....which I haven't contacted him either ....I'm just so much better when I don't see or hear from him...cause I'd like to slap that fake smile right off his face..S11's coach knows what's going on, we've talked about how sad it all makes me and he's wondered why H hasn't been to any practices...he used to go to them all, now can't be bothered with them, he has to "work"...all lies.....anyway....coach was talking to me about H and what if he brings OW there and I said, I don't know what I'd do but at this point in time it wouldn't be pretty...he said, "don't worry we got ur back"..they don't understand what happened to H either...I tell them what I think snodderly told me....that the mother ship has come in and kidnapped my H....LOL 
And he thinks he has it all.... 
Snodderly...you have told me a million times not to dwell....I think I need someone to knock me over the head with a 2 x4 sometimes....it's nuts...they're nuts...or making us think that we are...
