See, I'm having a hard time reading her. I can't quite get where she's at. She doesn't talk about the future much at all, where before she was bringing it up daily. Since she was bringing it up without me in it, that's a good thing. Still, the fact thatnothing has come up is a bit troublesome.
We have been doing things together as a family more and her mood has generally been better. But I can't quite get where she's at and where I should be. Believe me, I want to talk to her about it, but right now I know if it goes negative I'll be crushed and don't know exactly how to deal with it. She keeps getting letters in the mail from the lawyer (from the billing dept.), but hasn't asked me word one about the terms she sent me. However, I told her that I didn't want to talk about it, so that may be part of it. Then again, she seemed almost surprised and even a little worried when the packet arrived, so I'm thinking she may be having second thoughts. But I also don't want to get my hopes up and then have the whole thing blow up in my face.
I guess the quick summary here is that I am so lost and confused right now as to what she is thinking, but I also do not think that bringing it up right now will be in my best favor. I have until April 30th to sign the packet and if I do not, then I get served. While I don't plan on signing the packet, if I bring it up now and she still wants the divorce, she may very well have me served sooner.
So I'm kind of stuck. I don't want to rush into something and pressure her, but I also don't want wait around and do nothing and let this thing progress.
This is more of a vent/rant journaling post but any comments/concepts/help/ideas are welcome.
