I decided instead of journaling and over analyzing I would take some time to reflect on the things that I have accomplished since H and I separated;
-I do not initiate any phone calls or texts. I don't answer every call and I take my time returning his calls.
-I do not accept every invitation
-Ive stopped thinking about him every second and stopped obsessing about what he may or may not be doing
-I stopped feeling like I could not live without him
-I am always in a pleasant happy mood when he calls, even when he is in a bad mood; I don't allow it to dictate MY mood anymore
-Started attending church on a weekly basis again (like I did before I met H) he always seemed to talk me out of going. How could I allow that to happen? I don't know
-Started exercising again to tone up and become healthier
-Picked up some new hobbies & volunteer with adoptions for the animal shelter
-Learned how to cook for ONE and cook healthy
-Can attend a movie BY MYSELF!
-I pray alot more and give everything to God
-Attended a concert by myself and had a blast
-I have more confidence
-I have bigger goals
-I have rediscovered MY own interests and opinions, not just adopting to H's.
-I refuse to let him walk all over me and have put him in his place several times
-I FEEL like I will be fine on my own if that is what is meant for me. For the first time in my life, I am not afraid to be alone
-I have learned to lighten up and not get so mad so fast
-I have more patience....LOTS AND LOTS of patience.
Those are just some things I can think of for now. I love my H and I would give anything for our M to work, but the reality is that it may not. DBing is the best thing that could have happened to me because it has allowed me to look at myself and improve many things in my life. I feel good.
