Hang in there sweetie.
It is about to be the weekend and it may seem like you don't get many posts.
Please explain a little more of your sitch so that others can better give advice.
Read the entire book cover to cover.
I was where you are almost 3 years ago.
I love your first line.
I FELT THE SAME WAY!
Like I had to use a ladle to gather myself up off the floor.
Trust me you will get better.
Keep posting here and keep reading.

I did end up turning things around and saved my M.
There are many beautiful people here who will help you.
I don't always post daily, but I will keep my eye on you as well.

I lived in Denver for a year .
The Mountains are breath taking and the weather there is to die for.
I loved it.
Take care and God bless,
Ali