Seperated But Living Together

[2gthrButApart]

Thanks AJ,

I'm definitely doing this for me then for our family. I want to be happy, I thought I was happy. I really thought I was happy. But when we began having problems and I asked him why, then he began to point out all of these hurtful truths about me I realized no "happy" person can be so mean or so sarcastic all of the time.

I was happy in the sense that I had my H, I had healthy daughters, we have a decent life. But I was unhappy with myself, and one part of me knew that, but another part has been in denial for about 8 yrs. After I had my 2 girls, and my body transformed, my self image changed, and that hurt and anger radiated out to the world, my insecurities played a huge part in my M, b/c I began to act out of my insecurities.

But even after my H told me he wants a D, he keeps coming to me to ML and such so my dumb idea of my terrible self image can't be all that true. Over the yrs he always told me how attracted to me he is/was, but I always thought he was just trying to be nice, to help me feel good. There's no reason for any of that since the bomb, but he keeps coming to me.

I'm working on me for me, I want to feel good, and I want my H to feel good for marrying me. I want him to feel loved again, and to be proud of being married to me, as I am to him.