I've had the day off work today so lots of time needing to keep busy in. I did go to the gym today, eventho i was feeling completely unmotivated. yay me! glad I did now.
Just been thinking lots and lots today...
One things H started saying right before all of this happened was that we never had anything to talk about anymore. He felt we had said it all. H complained that when we would go for out for dinner, etc there was a lot of quietness, and that we didn't have much to talk about. I thought the quietness was ok, to me it meant being comfortable, content, happy and that we didn't need to constantly make small talk but just enjoy each others company.
Also, The hardest thing for me is that we have moved several time in the last 2-3 yrs for H's job, which I was happy doing, but in the place I live now I was not working myself for a long time, was trying hard to find a job. I did finally find a great job last sept which is the only thing that has kept me sane thru all this! But all of my friends are 'our' friends and work at the company H works for. So since this happened none of them have spoke to me. I understand how things go and how they may feel awkward. They have all basically stayed friends with H leaving me really isolated. I have since reached out to a couple girls at work and become friends and got great support from one especially. Its hard not knowing many people here and my family are very far away so I can only visit a couple times a year.
Ive been reading thru lots of other people's situations and the advice is really helpful. I glad I found this place.
Me-27 H-28 M-2.5 yrs T-8.5 yrs No kids B 1/09 S 2/09
