I feel like no matter what I do , H will do whatever he wants. I have been his friend. He has done horrible things. Accused me "on paper" of things a worst enemy wouldn't. But i have taken the higher road and extended my kindness. I realize he WANTS me to be his friend. Fine with everything. It probably eases his guilt. Like nothing is wrong. He has me and OW happy with him.
He can choose to be with her but I can't pretend everything is fine. I have. Where does that get me? He is not happy when I pull away. Why is that? If he made the right choice, it shouldnt matter what i do.
