The Flames are Still Rising....

[blindsided1]

No HW, he has not paid any CS except for one month (December), he didn't pay even when he had a job. He does, however, pay for his half of daycare (or I should say, she pays for it). I'm scared to death that he is going to have 50% custody of her. You do realize that he is unstable, unreliable, undependable, irrational, angry, verbally abusive, immature, he can't care for himself let alone 4 children including 2 infants. He will destroy her. He will destroy her. This has NOTHING to do with OW or what I feel emotionally towards my H. Him having her 50% of the time is detrimental to her well being. I honestly believe that. I do not want her to grow up like him. Please. I can't bear the thought of her being away from me 1/2 the time and in a house that is full of turmoil and drama and a place where she will not get the attention she needs mainly because the baby and the two other kids. My H is NOT a good man, he is not a good roll model, he is not empathetic or selfless. He only cares about himself. He always has.

I have been documenting everything since the day she was born. All the missed visits, the tardiness, the non payment of our debt and child support. He has been out of work since December and has not asked to have K any extra amount of time. He has shown no indication that he truly wants her 50% of the time. He even cancels on his court ordered days...so he can golf instead.

I do not believe they are going to provide K with a safe environment. They have two large dogs, she has come home with flea bites all over her head, twice.

He has brought her home without feeding her for 4 1/2 hours or changing her diaper for 6.

"They" took their 4 day old newborn to a little league game. At 5 days old H introduced K to him. I told H that K was sick and he probably should consider not taking her to his house. But, he did and they had a photo session where my sick K was hugging the 5 day old baby...you could see the snot running down out of her nose.

God I just pray and pray that it stays the way it is with our custody and CS order.