Well, I dont want to, but I cant afford this big ole house on my own anymore (yes, rented and he chose it over a smaller, cheaper cottage). So I set up viewings on 2, smaller, cheaper, cottages today, nearer to the coast, but cheaper by about £175 a month than where I am now, which will make a big difference.
Also, after looking at phds and Masters and stuff, today I started the application for a PGCE/PCET, which is to be an FE lecturer, or Adult Ed trainer (or to get QTS to do the study skills/disseration help for students, which is incredibly well paid). So, no harm in applying right, but it feels strange, making plans alone, but then what choice have I got? Plus I may have to move to do the course and no idea how I would afford it on top of my already towering EU butter mountain of debt, but I would find a way, I usually do.
No word from him, but thats not surprising. I will have to see him next week I think, for my sanity if nothing else. I wish we could have a 'closure' convo like Julia had tonight (and a perfect day for it, being the New Moon linked to Venus squared to Pluto, trust me, it was a good day for it) but I didnt get mine today.
Feel a bit wierd going home as I had resolved to see MIL this time, after the nice letter she sent me. But, that will be hard so I'll see. So another week goes by without seeing him and now its nearly 4 months.
