Laughing -- can you go to california...and as far as your kids I have no idea the story...but one thing is true...if you dont get hooked in dicks games....your children will probably one day be able to form their own judgements and it could work out that they wont want anything to do with him....but it takes being still. I would use this time to grow your faith and study Gods word, it will not return void in the end....so many peole have no fear of God and I suspect you x is one of them....