Just missing you guys a little!

[Amy M]

Hey, y'all!!! I'm doing good today...just talked to the business attorney...so, everything on my end is done. H said last night that he was busy at work and wouldn't be able to review the final documents until next week. I said, "That's cool. You were the one in a hurry!" So, he then tried to back pedal a little and say that he wasn't in a hurry, etc., etc. Just a few days ago he accused me of stalling the entire process.

I did remove the "not dating before D" clause from the settlement. When I sent it back to him yesterday, I told him that I removed it since..."You weren't going to abide by it anyway, and if you aren't going to, why should I have to?" Not that I would ever, but, you know, maybe he'll wonder!

I also told him again last night that I thought the lying had to stop...he tried to tell me why he lied about the boys being at OW's place this weekend. I stopped him...I said, "H, I don't care. Sunday's in the past. We can't change the past. What I'm saying is that we have a lot of years to be parents together, and that I deserve to know where my children are and who they are with at all times. You have that same right. So, please, please, please don't lie about something like that again. I don't care what you do anymore. Don't you get that? I just want to know what my children are doing when they are not with me." He said, "Okay." But, we all know that's not gonna happen. Does he lie cause he doesn't know how to tell me the truth anymore...almost like it's a habit. I don't know!

Sandi, so glad you had good days!!! Hope you have many, many more!

Tawnya...hugs to you!

polly...I hear ya! I just don't want to carry that around with me. I'm not built that way...God gave me a big heart full of love. I've never hated or been hated by anyone (unless you count S3's teacher...I thought she hated me for a while). So, I think I'll be happier if I can forgive her. I don't want to be her friend (or his for that matter). I just want to have peace at night. I'll get there!

Sam...thanks for stopping by. Did you want to shop for shoes??? I'll meet you whenever for that!!! Thanks for the vote of confidence on my talk with S7. It was tough to have! I'm sure we'll have to cover it a lot...S7 worships his dad.

Other than the occasional, "I miss my daddy" I haven't had to deal with S3 about the sitch much. He takes his cues from S7. If S7 is not upset, then S3 isn't. But, the other night he did cry and say that he missed his daddy and then followed it with, "If my room was clean my daddy wouldn't leave." That was horrible! I just told him that daddy's leaving had nothing to do with the cleanliness of his room or with either of them. I told him that Daddy left because of Mommy...that he couldn't live with Mommy any longer. I don't know what goes through his mind most of the time. He's very loving towards me...and he wants me to brag on him about everything. But, I'm not sure if that's sitch related or not! Might just be who he is.

S7 does look after him at his dad's. He makes a point of telling me sometimes when S3 was sad or when S3 got in trouble...or like last weekend...when S3 was scared at first of OW's dog. So, I'm sure having S7 in the mix makes it easier for S3. All you can do is continuously reassure them of your love for them and of your love for W and of her love for them. It sucks!!!!

I'll catch up on your thread tonight...hope you had an okay day!

Love you all!
Amy