It has actually been a draining/guilt-inducing afternoon. I want to strangle Dan but instead I will focus on myself, my actions, and my kids. And NOT talking to Dan right now is best as I am so frustrated...

*I had to leave school, pick up Sydney at daycare, and take both kids 40 minutes each way for Nathan to get allergy shots. I had to do this and be back in a 2-hr time frame to be here for parent-teacher conferences. Well we got to the office (third visit for shots) and Nathan had a meltdown, wouldn't get out of the car. The office is ONLY open on Thursdays or I wouldn't have come. And we had a narrow time window to get it done, b/c you have to wait 20 minutes afterward to make sure you don't have a reaction.

I had to pry him out of the car. Then he refused to enter the office once we got off the elevator at 2nd floor. Then I got him in and he lay on the ground screaming, etc etc. You get the idea.

I kept trying to pick him up but he is 50 lbs of wiggling, screaming boy at this point. Finally the dr. came out and he picked up Nathan in a bear hug and carried him in and held him for his shots.

Then he talked to him afterward about how he (Dr.) and I both loved Nathan and wanted him better, that is why we will always make him get his shots and no fit will ever get him out of getting the shots, so it isn't worth having a fit, etc etc Did I mention I love our doctor??

So then we get back into town 3 min. before I am due at the school. Good thing I live .5 miles from school! ;\) Well Sydney starts freaking out when she sees papa's car in our driveway. With 2 nights of conferences this week plus night class this is the third night in a row for the kids to be handed off to grandparents for the evening. She was crying and screaming for her mommy but I had to go in and change for conferences, I still got here 5 min. late. FIL had to pin her into her car seat to strap her in, she was throwing a fit.

Guilt? Yeah, I have some of that right about now....
Also anger at Dan for just being gone and leaving me to handle everything. I know that even if we lived together he would have to travel for work, but the kids wouldn't be missing him quite as much if he weren't out of the house, too.

So I think I am going to have to put some of my interests aside until the kids are in bed at night (treadmill, I will see you at midnight!) and start spending some serious quality time with them. And get back on a regular, comfortable/familiar schedule next week once conferences are over. Too much stress for everyone right now... \:\(

Me-35

Together: 18 yrs
M-12.5 yrs
S-8
D-4
D'd: Feb. 2010

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