Dropping the rope

[peacetoday]

New attitude
thanks for your kind words..hope you are well
Upside
you have been a very good friend and I am rooting for you and your H

H was here today to see kids
he was waiting outside with the kids
I went outside to see what everyone was doing
h was distant and angry from his expression
i said Hi
we talked briefly
his anger left immediately and he fixed the door
then they left to take dog to park
came back with dinner
they ate \we again talked briefly about business
there is so much to talk about regarding business and kids since we have not talked for a while
My H wants to talk
when I give him this friendship9( even for a few minutes) he is lighter comes more and is helpful
when I distance/go dim he is distant quiet
problem is always the same for me
it is hard to move on and still connect with H at this point
I am less angry /sad at him still very disappointed in his choice and his A and his choice to stay /live with OW

I would like to get to the point where I can allow for a friendship and NO longer care about Reconcilialtion
but
I dont think I am fully there yet
SO
I probably need to maintain little contact/ be pleasant/ but remain distant for now until I am healed
peace