I'm not on videochat with them every night. Just most nights. I always talk to them on the phone regardless of videochat.
I always do their prayers with them on their cell phone before they go to bed at night. They know I love them and miss them. Hopefully I will get to see them Sunday night. W is going to be stunned. Probably angry, upset, mad, hate me more, etc. But this isn't about her. Its about me being there for my kids. I'm still studying by the way.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
Today is day 2 of going dark. I submitted my resume for a few more positions yesterday. Hopefully I will get some interviews.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
Thanks. This is tough. I'm obviously worried about getting a job where I am not struggling financially. I'm also worried things are going to be worse by me being back in the city as far as how my W views me and treats me. But I'm not going there for her. I'm going there for my kids.
I just wish she wouldn't be so evil towards me. I don't understand this whole thing as to the A, the D, wanting me completely out of her life as if I don't exist, etc.
Its not easy to fathom all of this. But I do exist. And I have 2 wonderful girls that want me back. And I want to be back with them.
I think its hard when your S does not see that you truly are sorry for your mistakes and want to make things better. On top of that when they don't even care if you make better changes. They are so caught up in their new life sometimes that nothing else matters to them. But to treat people like they don't even exist and not have a care in the world about them. Thats hard to swallow sometimes.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
On top of that when they don't even care if you make better changes. They are so caught up in their new life sometimes that nothing else matters to them. But to treat people like they don't even exist and not have a care in the world about them. Thats hard to swallow sometimes.
I understand how you feel. It is very hard to accept or understand. Don't have any advice for you.... just wanted to let you know I am with you on that
Me:28, first M H: 33, second M Married: 08/08 Bomb: 10/08 H filed D and deployed: 12/08 Served: 04/09 I deploy: 07/09 Hearing date: 08/09