Stress, WAW and life in general II

[AJM]

Thanks. I don't think she really ever did want a child. I think its part of the symtpoms. It stings a bit to hear it though.

Yikes. You lost a boob job?

Maybe the anger comes from guilt....guilt at how she's treating all of you and your all still there. Maybe she's trying to push you all as hard as she can so you'll leave and bye bye guilt...??

I think some of it does. I think the stress keeps her in a fog. I think she gets mad and becomes what she blamed me for being. Then, because of the mommy-guilt she gets even angrier and then puts it on me. It's weird.

I think her wanting to see the C alone is a good thing. Don't know why, but I do. Maybe she's seeking advice as to how she can cross that bridge back home the best way possible for her

Yeah, well I'm an analyst by trade and an optimist by choice. I think the truth is somewhere in the middle of all of that though. I think she has some things to say that she doesn't want to tell me directly. Could be what you say, but I suspect it's more about the baby feelings and the desire to sometimes run over and wrap her arms around me while at others (may be shortly after that) she wants to kick me in the nuts and kick me out the door. In that order. I don't think she understands why that is.

I do think its good that she wants to go back to church. That's been a big part of her life for so long that getting away from that has been really heartbreaking. I am very glad she's talking about doing that and hope she follows through. I encourage it even if it is not in the same church. Even if things don't work out between us.

Oh, and somedays it does not feel very lucky to be living in the same house although overall I am glad for it.

My daughter is hilarious. Great sense of humor and a great sense of people. She really is a great kid. My son is as well. His humor is a bit more dry - gets it from me I've been told. Can't see it, but there you go

AJ