Sheesh. You may benefit from the advice a friend of mine once gave - carry a fork. Why? because when you're tempted to say something because you're angry, you should instead put that fork in your leg. My leg is very sore indeed.
HE'S NOT IN LOVE WITH HER. HE HAS NOTHING BUT SHAME AND CONTEMPT FOR HER.
I can understand your feelings. I'd be angry. Heck, I only virtually know you and I'm angry. But I also know that it means NOTHING. Your husband wants a new you back. He sees the changes. They're not done yet, and he's noticed. He's worried. He's confused. He's not sure why he's so attracted to you and why you're angry. After all, he said he was sorry and that nothing was going on.
Doesn't know what you know. Doesn't see what you see.
LET IT GO before it eats you up. You cannot change the past. You cannot do anything about it.
Next time you get hit with something that reminds you, act as if and come here and post. I'd be happy to keep up with you. I'm sorry there is no other way to allow you to connect more rapidly as I would be happy to let you vent with me vs. knowing that you're stewing on it.
Try this: Next time something reminds you, let it go. For at least almost all of the day. Give yourself 20 minutes to feel it at some point during the day. Don't do that before bed though. Must be much earlier because you won't want to sleep with that.
This guy's facebook entry made me laugh. The item about the world burning and the firemen bringing marshmallows was a good laugh. Your life could be worse, right? http://tinyurl.com/cvoay8
Be good to yourself. Be good to your son. Be open to your husband. Work on you. You're worth it.
Oh, and no you may not puke on people's shoes. That's considered impolite in 35 states and I'm not sure which one you'll be in when it happens - better safe than sorry, right?
The affectionate touch; do you know how many people here would kill for that from their spouse? Keep perspective girlfriend.
He's changing the game by bringing down barriers he put up and it's knocking you for a loop. Steady as you go.....
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
