Thanks guys. I found a wonderful counseling place on the internet that is in Omaha. They specialize in children (their name is even kids, inc.)and also family work to the extent that what is wrong with the children stems from what is wrong with the family dynamic much of the time.
Anyway I have no idea if they take our insurance but even if they don't I want Nathan to go there. They have all kinds of interesting articles on their website. Like how for little boys, when they act mad it is often to cover up feeling sad. How divorce or separation is as major an impact on kids as a death. Etc etc
I put a call in to the center and the head honcho is supposed to be calling me back to discuss Nathan and decide which counselor would be best suited for him.
John you are right I know that I am clinging to that hope and I need to stop. Something as dumb as booking a vacation without him is a challenge for me. I need to just get out there and live life but I guess I feel tethered to my marriage in some way. OK I need to set myself up for some counseling too, don't I?
