We have made it to the other side 4

[Treese]

Hey all.....

YR & Snodderly....I agree that you both have always given us the best advice....we are truly listening...I think we just come here mainly to vent, to feel better, to know we're not the only ones..that's what helps me....to know I'm not alone in this world of MLC..

I try to not let them have space in my brain but it's when I'm alone and feeling down that it settles in...I just would never treat my worst enemy this way...

O,,,YR...my H's OW doesn't really have to put up with anything...she has the good H.....she has him when she wants him and going on vacation with him...they have good conversation, according to him she listens, she has accepted him for everything, including his other son..so why wouldn't he love her...I'm the evil one, who is having a hard time accepting it all, but was never given a chance to...never knew about it for 9 flippin years....and I'm told to let the past go, just like that..I know I can't change it but at least give me the time I need to absorb it all...geezzzz.....I'm exhausted mentally....my brain is working overtime....but I'm working on that...really putting myself in to my daughter's wedding...sometimes I wish I didn't even have to invite him....bad, I know but geez, ..

I"m not looking for sympathy from anyone...I played my part obviously in all this...but never to the point I thought would end my marriage...stupid stuff...no one wins in these situations, just lots of hurt and pain....

Weekend, H is taking son on Saturday for the night...I may go shopping...not sure...I don't want to sit at home alone...I asked friends but all are going out with their spouses or BF...

Shopping always makes me feel good....

And, Sunshine....I do pray...lots...my faith is very strong..it has to be to get us through this...I talk to my priest often...he's wonderful....

Thanks everyone....