The adventure continues

[AFWAW]

Puppy,
Just looked at my bills and I am NOT selling my house right now unless I just get something so outrageous that I cannot turn it down. I am seriously contemplating cancelling the date. My heart just wouldn't be in it. She accused me of having an affair a long time ago while I was in Iraq. I told her that I hadn't--it came back to me last night that maybe she was trying to justify what she has done--whatever it is.

I think she is trying to control me. I don't want to shut her out right now as I want her to feel like there is a chance for us but I don't want to be taken advantage of either. I haven't started any relationship talks--she has started them all--have I asked too many questions?--probably. These are some good lines though--I guess I'll see what she says today if she even tries to contact me. I hope whatever she does she gets herself right quickly. I can't take much more of this.