The Flames are Still Rising....

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Well, no my MIL did not whip out the phone. She was in the car and answered it and I saw it. She knew I saw it and what could she do at that point? I'm okay now.

So, on to today. Last night I came home from softball. We were close only 5-29 Pah lease. We SUCK. But, it's still fun and exercise. I got home. K was in bed and there was an envelope from dear ol' H waiting for me. In it was revised custody papers. He's going for 50/50. Duh, I cried. People say its not likely, but what if it happens? KC is my life. And, after all he has done...he wants to take what's left of my family? He has not shown any interest in taking her 50% so why now? I'll tell you why...money!!!! He does not want to pay CS. I hate his f'ing guts. I am not remotely attracted to him, anymore. I don't want him. I would love for him to move out of state with his whore and his child (that most likely is not his) and get the hell out of my life. But, being the person I am, I really don't feel that way (just venting). I want him to have a good relationship with KC and her brother. But, why after all he has done to me, why do I and KC deserve to be penalized because HE chose to leave? I hate him. I have not talked to him. I don't want to. And, now, MIL (who has always been on my side) tells me that she has researched 50/50 custody and nowadays it's normal. Can you say "cut off"? I knew this day would come. I have been prepared. But, I am NOT letting anyone know anything about my feelings. I am "acting as if" everything is fine. And, I have faith that it will be. He has his family. KC is mine. She is my family and I am hurt that he is doing this. Because, I know it is not for the right reasons. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT HIM.

NOT IN MY WORLD!!!! Not anymore.