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[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, Treese! (YR, I know this is your thread and I'm sorry for the hi-jack).

Treese, I am so in the same shoes you are emotionally right now!!!! I know what I need to do and are doing it as far and PMA, NC, etc. But, it seems like just when I feel like I am getting a hold of things, something happens and my emotions ambush me and I feel like it's so hopeless, and then I get really mad at myself for allowing H that power over me!

It's just so galling that they seem to be allowed to happily take a vacation from life and we're supposed to hold down the forty and smile and cheer them on even though they have shattered our very soul in a way that we know we will never fully recover from. And it's hard to believe that under it all they could actually be suffering.

But, my friend, we also know that this is all un-productive thinking, and that we do nothing but hurt ourselves with it. We both have so much to be thankful for we're strong and we'll make it through this. But it so very very hard! I know!

YR and Snodderly, thank you both so very much for your continued wise mentorship and encouragement of all of us here. It is so very much needed and appreciated (even if it seems we don't listen sometimes).........if either of you has a spare moment to stop over on my thread, I could sure use some of your sage wisdom. A lot of stuff going on over the past week and I still feel shell shocked from it all. So many emotions......not sure which way is up sometimes.......

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