Oops!!.......I think I've dropped the rope!!

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, Y'all.

Had a pretty good day. Took a long lunch and went to book store to get reading material for vacation. Also got baby book(s) for D & K.

Had a pretty good session with C. Talked about K of course and my kids and H's actions of the past week. C is very bothered by much of H's behavior, and is interested to see H in session again after H had told him he wasn't going anymore.

I sat in S17's session briefly and then left time for S to have IC. On the way home, S said he told C about H's "girlfriend". So, I asked him if H had talked about her with him. S then told me she has kids and H has met them. And just like that my mood plummeted!

I know, I know!!!!!!!!! Why do I ask? But it freakin' kills me!!! He can't spend good quality time with his own kids and GD, but he can with hers??!!!! What the he** is that??? I asked S if that bothered him, but he said No that he didn't care because he didn't want to spend time with H because all he does is put S to work at the house or something. If this woman is looking for a new daddy for her kids, she has a rude awakening coming.......but then I don't know how old her kids are. I know it's all useless speculation in my head.

It just all hurts so much!! I just want so much for him to look at our beautiful grand-daughter and see how important our family is!! The one we built together!

I know I'm just screaming into the wind.......gotta let it go.....it's not gonna happen.

I tell you one thing though......when our tax return comes in I'm taking some and getting some stuff for my GD!!! We spent over $1000 on stuff 2 years ago when OW (the Secretary) had her baby!! I'll be dammed if I'll let him be stingy with one of our own!

And, by the way, I haven't been nasty to H the couple of times he called today re: S17. Quite the contrary, I was very cordial. And last night, I actually left him a message on his voice mail that I appreciated his efforts with D24 and K, and that I realized it was difficult for him.