The adventure continues

[AFWAW]

Ok, thanks guys. You are being very supportive and I appreciate it. You won't believe this but she called again. I let my daughter get it. She was bringing the dog back. Apparently she didn't think the dog could stay the night as it was too excitied.
She sat down next to me and asked me if I was ok and tried to make light conversation. I gave her short answers but I didn't ask her anything and I didn't cry in front of her. She asked for another hug from me and lingered for a bit and then tried to joke with me on the way out. Who am I fooling--she could see plain as day I'm hurting---dammit!!!! I don't know what's going through her mind. It must have been something really bad that she did for her to leave her daughter behind. I don't get it. I really don't get it. I actually was feeling good today until that phone call. I worked out twice--I can actually see my abs now. I caught a woman looking at me in the gym-- that was cool. How can I ever respect this woman again if she won't even tell me what she did and won't even face me. She ran from me and her daughter---if she doesn't face this and try, I will never respect her again. I will refuse to talk with her unless it is about my daughter and I will be cold about it. She needs to come to reality really really fast.

I have left multiple ways for her to come back. She only needs to tell me what she did and ask me to come back. I will forgive her and accept her back. She only has to try. The problem is she doesn't want to. Almost 40 and it looks like I'm going to have have to start over--I never thought in a million years this would happen. I'm going to try to go to sleep. Thanks again guys.