sweeprs, sometimes only an event like this will get us closer to God, I actually found my faith through my pain, I realize that I was powerless and that I was weak, that the only one powerful enough to help me was, is, God. Sometimes we have to suffer because of other people's bad choices, not because God is "making" us suffer, the beauty of it is, God can use such an ugly event and turn it into a blessing. Sure I wish my family stayed intact, but I have changed for the better, I have found true peace.
Believe it will be alright, set your mind to think positive, to know that a new future is ahead of you, that God wants to bless you inmesurably more than before.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
