Boy, I have up days and down days...today seemed down, for no apparent reason. We had a couple of days where we were very good to each other and happy in front of the kids. Yesterday, not any small talk, sort of a cold shoulder...not sure why just important not to react to it. Today she went to meet with an attorney (the appointment she asked me to go to together). I was tied up so she went alone. I have not really talked to her since, but she may want to go over some of it tonight. I hate that part. I did get my hair cut today, and the stylist did a nice job. It was wierd to go to someone else, it has been 14 years. I don't think my wife noticed as we just passed for a few minutes before she had to leave for work. I had a strange observation today. Before my wife and I got engaged, we were out shopping and doing things, dinner, etc. We passed a store that had estate pieces and when in to see some jewels. We saw an engagement band and it had a great story, turn of the century, sweet story about the couple, etc. It s the ring I bought for my wife when I asked her to marry me, I went back the next day to secure it. As the years passed, my wife always said that she wanted a bigger stone and maybe a new setting when we could afford it. She clearly wanted something she could be more proud of, and I certainly anticipated doing it on an anniversary one year. Anyway, the odd thing is that I just noticed that she still wears it. She takes it off to shower, dishes, etc., so it comes off. But even though she doesn't really like it as a jewelry piece, she is still wearing it. I know we all grasp at things, and I am certainly not trying to read anything into it. But I wonder what goes through a women's head at times like this, and I can't help but think that if it were me and the rolls were reversed and I was kicking the door down to file for divorce and get out ASAP, I probably would have had it in my jewelry box...discuss...
