WAW - Very confused and devestated - pt 5

[confusedinpa]

Guys I appreciate all the support and really appreciate the optimism. From your lips to God's ears that there is really a chance

I was really sick this afternoon so I came home from work (chills, fever, stomach, etc). When my wife got home she said I should have called her. She did ask if there was something in particular I wanted for dinner (I didn't eat all day). I asked for jelly toast. She gave me a couple of advils. She didn't try to comfort me with any touch though. It made me a little sad

I did thank her for the toast and advil. We talked lightly for a minute or so but I saw she was trying to avoid eye contact. I suspect she signed the lease today. I'm not going to ask. It doesn't make a difference in my mind

I laid in the family room after dinner under a pile of blankets. After about an hour she suggested I go upstairs to bed

Before I went up, I thanked her again and appologized if she felt anything I said last nite was inappropriate. She said what? I repeated it. She didn't say anything and I went upstairs

My therapist feels that my wife is now emotionally shut down. Almost depressed like I was. She was surprised how little concern my wife is showing about the kids and to me. She noticed that my wife doesn't show any compassion or any emotion when I get upset about the impact to the kids

I noticed that tonite. I am scared for her. That is no way to live life. I just don't know how to help her.

My thrapist feels I have been extremely compasionate to my wife but I don't think she is really familiar with the Love without hurt concepts. I'm only up to page 140. Hope I can finish it when there is still time/hope

Thanks for all the support and insight