The adventure continues

[AFWAW]

OH NO, OMG what a horrible, horrible phone call I just had from her. She said there is someone at work that may be interested in buying our house. I said I'm not interested in selling right now--she said, well how are you affording it. I said don't worry about it I am. She said, well aren't you going to sell it? I said that depends. She said depends on what? I said a lot of things. She said us? I said yes. She said I don't think I'm going to change my mind. I said ok, why? She said I've done bad things. I said like what? She said stuff that I don't want to talk about. I said why not? She said its just real bad and I don't deserve you. I said what an affair, a one night stand, what are we talking about here? I said it's unfair for you to speculate what you think I deserve or don't deserve. Why don't you let me make my own decisions. I said, how do you know it won't work out? She said I know you. I told her she would never know unless she came clean and we could talk about it.
OMG--I AM SO FREAKING DEVESTATED RIGHT NOW---I THINK SHE SLEPT WITH SOMEONE ELSE--oh no, what if its more than just one person?
She said she couldn't even look at herself. Oh no, I cannot think straight. She said God won't even forgive me. I told her God would forgive anyone. She said you won't forgive me. I said you'll never know until you try. I told her before if it was an affair I would forgive her.

She said it's not that easy, I have obligations. I said what, your apartment? She said yes. I told her if she really wanted to get out of her apartment lease, she could. She said I don't think I could. I said you'll never know unless you try. She said I don't know if I love you like that anymore. Then why the freak do you keep calling me and wanting to go out on dates with me. Why are you kissing me and telling me that you still love me and don't want a divorce right now? She said I don't know. I've got some stuff to work out. I said what? She said some stuff in my mind. I said ok, fine work it out. She said I like my lifestyle, I like the way I live now. Started on the cleaning for one, cooking for one, etc.

I did break down a little bit, I won't lie. It was a horrible, horrible, horrible phone call. She had another call from work she said and had to go--she said she would call me back but I doubt she will.

Why did she do something so bad? Has she slept with one man, two men, 10 men? I don't know. I am so beside myself right now. What the hell am I going to do? Why won't this woman talk to me. Why is she doing this to us? What makes people so evil? I cannot think straight. Someone please help me