Over the Shock - Detaching and GALing

[Thinker]

Thanks for the continued support.

One of the reasons that I am finding it so difficult to support and understand her is that her despair and misery clashes with my goals for myself.

I have always been the restrained (some would say repressed ;)) one in the R - avoiding conflict, not rocking the boat, not standing out, working for the future, and generally being personally conservative. My goals for myself are to get over this inhibition, let loose a bit, enjoy the moment, take risks socially, have fun and be a lot more passionate. Unfortunately, while I think she always really wanted this from me, right now it doesn't work around her - both bad timing and her general reaction to me. She has always been a fun and playful person, but not recently with me. A couple of times (not in the past few weeks) I picked her up and spun her around playfully and got only "Stop! What are you doing! Put me down!!" - not an environment for playful passionate fun

I need to find more ways to get out and practice being "the new me" on my own.