Episode IV: A New Hope (?)

[dday101798]

Just checking in, sort of.

Looking forward to "visit" tonight, guess we'll go bowling again as I have to practice for Sunday and the time usage works out perfectly.

As all this is sinking in I'm finding myself going through a weird metamorphises I can't explain. I've never been vocal with people in the sense of expressing what's important to me, case being STBX, at the end of a disagreement, I always let her roll over me. But now, I'm finding myself taking a stance for myself.

Might have something to do with the fact that I have to talk to to her, and when I do, I have to cordial and "accepting".

I don't know, but overall through this changing I am feeling really really good. I haven't had any breakdown issues or anything for over a week and half and find myself just feeling better as each day goes on, even in light of I'm getting my first paycheck with "single" taxes deducted on Friday, OUCH! what a difference.

Other than that, took the kids to the local skateboard park by me on last Saturday and they dragged me out of retirement (used to ride on the amature tour many many moons ago). It was cool, we had some good bonding times and then as I started to get the feel for everything again when I'd cathc up with the boys on one of the ramps waiting to go they'd say "cool stuff Dad" and all the other kids would say "that's your Dad!?!" LOL.

Also the trip to the park took us past the middle school they would go to if living with me. It's huge, and it's clean with a basball field and football field versus their currnet school that has a concrete lot. They started asking questions about it and when we were out in 'my' yard and heard all the other kids on the blocks playing they were asking about how many kids lived around me that are their age. Big change from last week when they said they'd "be bored" living with me.

well, that's about all. Oh, think I'm going to finally cave on this issue, my boss has been heckling me about our department administrative assistant having "inquired" of me in recent months. They are going out to lunch today and conveniently my lunch meat smelled funny this morning so I have no lunch. Heh, maybe I'll be a 3rd wheel.