Last night I came to a crossroads in my M. The W wanted to get the kids after school and take them to dinner. this was her plan since last week. Yesterday it morphed into her asking me to drop the kids by her apartment before I went out. 5 minutes later, it was "I'm just going to keep them at your place, so they have their toys." I said, OK.
So I met a friend at a Wing place; had wings and a couple of beers. I got home and she had made the kitchen spotless; had the kids pick up after themselves in my living room; had done three loads of laundry and placed the folded clothes in my room. I thanked her for the help.
A little while later, she asked me what I thought about dating again. She said that God had really convicted her heart and that He wants her to repair the M. I told her that I was open to it; but I wanted to go slow. We both agreed that was the best course.
She talked about why she set out on her destructive pattern. I have no way of even knowing if any of that was true; but I just listened and validated. What she said is of no consequence because it doesn't justify what she did and she admitted that it didn't. She said that she realizes that what she wanted was not making her happy.
At the end of the night, she hugged me; told me she loved me; and kissed me for the first time since August. I'm still wary; but maybe there's a glimmer of hope for my M. I will just keep taking baby steps; I'm not in a hurry. the best thing about DB'ing is that I know NOW; that I'll be fine if the M doesn't work out. But I have the best chance I've ever had to make the M successful than I've ever had.
So, yes Amy, God is Great...Is He moving a mountain? Time will tell!
