Monday evening at 10:25pm I sent H a txt, asking him if he thinks he will ever love me enough, or be attracted to me enough to want to ML again.
Reply came at 10:50pm, saying, "Whoa! That's an interesting question to be woken up to! What brought that on again?"
I replied... "Well, you know I will give an unending effort to make us work. But, I think I deserve to know if you're willing to work on us as a couple, or if you're just staying home for the kids. It just hurts to be so in love with you, and not have it returned. I don't just miss us physically, but the intimacy that comes with it. I'll never take it for granted again, given the chance. That's all. I love you."
Her replied. "I have been asleep for an hour, with not an hour of sleep last night, and am dead tired. I will talk to you tomorrow, OK?"
OF COURSE I know it was the wrong thing to do.
OF COURSE I know I'm applying pressure.
OF COURSE I'm sick and tired of living in limbo. At some point, we all have a point where we're not being able to continue in the current conditions. I'm sorry, I'm getting there.
We didn't talk, but he was driving in horrendous rain and thunderstorm conditions yesterday. He'll be home this evening.
My plan is to just act as I usually do, have a nice dinner ready, be sweet and kind, etc... The ball's in his court now. If he chooses to ignore it, then so be it. On to PLAN B. Not sure what that is, but some changes need to be made.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
