Thanks MrsM.. I've never heard of that one! I need to get myself prepared for the next R...
Hey Naej, no, he has no laptop or b/berry, just his work mobile on site. He's a geologist, not a businessman, ha! He hasnt checked his emails yet, I bet, so was kind of an unfortunate week for me to take the brave step of emailing him asking him to meet up.. as now he has the perfect excuse to ignore it ! (probably legitimately). Yes I'm going back to my hometown to see my parents and my oldest friends!
Thanks Simon, yes, at this stage, I may as well just do as my wise ole Mum keeps telling me, just do whatever you want to do, think of yourself now, do what feels right in your heart.. if you want to text/email/phone, just do it. But.. I picked the wrong week hey! So I still dont know whether to text him.
I've woken up for a few days with this feeling, he's gone, its almost too late, he's left it too long even if he is having doubts..I know he is incredibly slow to decide/act emotionally anyway, thats in his makeup, but this is really dragging on. And you know what hurts the most? Not that he is seeing her really, but that he wont see me. He just wont see me, yet he can email, phone and send me presents, but he hasnt seen me since before Christmas. Thats unnacceptable to me now.
My (wise ole Mum) reckons its a measure of him still having feelings/being undecided that he wont, or cant see me, that he doesnt trust himself for how would be and 'cant face' seeing me. I suspect that too (I wouldnt if he wasnt still contacting me/sending me thoughtful gifts, I would assume he just didnt want to see me)..
