My situation #9

[steady]

Journaling:

On Sunday my W said she had to work on a report from school and also on the information she had to work on for a request for information my L sent regarding the court order. So I spent all day Sunday taking care of the kids while she stayed in her room. She only came out when it was time to put the kids to bed.

Later on that night she started talking to me about how she was stressed and hard it was on her typing the report about the court order. She said she was having to relive it and remember the conversationgs we had that got ugly last year.

She went to her room and I went in there a little while later. I told her I would talk to my lawyer and see if I could get him to postpone the date it was due. I felt bad for her. (stupid me)She thanked me. I am not a dick and I'm not going to start acting like on. I am a really nice guy and I'm going to stay true to myself no matter what she says or does. I've gotten alot of people telling me to just screw her and not do nice things for her - but that's not me and I'm not going to start acting like that.

I called my L yesterday and talked to him. I told him about pushing the date off and he said he thought we should keep the pressure on. This is what will get her to settle with a deal that would be good for me. I told him she was having a hard time and I still care about her. He told me to think with my head and not my heart. He said the judge set the date because she wants that information. I also talked to him about what my W and I discussed about an agreement. We set an appointment for next Wed to talk.

And yesterday I got the prescription for the CPAP machine. So I should be getting that in the next few days. It should help me get better sleep and wake up feeling more rested. I sure hope so.