TAL, Fla is in about 6 weeks. Going to the UP of Mich with S16 and one of my brothers in a couple weeks. It'll be good to get away. I'm finding myself enjoying not being around her more and more. Like last night. I had a haircut I had to leave for not too long after I got home from work. I left early because I just wanted to get out of the house. After the haircut, I found myself driving the long way home just so I would stay out longer. When I got home, W had taken S20 to get his haircut (new place he didn't know how to get to) and it was a relief for her to be gone when I got home. And it was really nice being there by myself for the extra hour until they got home.
When I heard them pulling in the driveway, I could feel myself getting tense.
Not really anything W has been doing. She's been friendly enough. Somewhat engaging. I just continue to feel the resentment build and I don't know how to get out of it. I don't know if it's impatience with the situation or what. I think that may be part of it. A couple weeks ago I once again put it out there what I needed from her and once again I just don't see her "getting it".
I'll just keep plugging along until at least our Fla trip. If we connect on the trip like I suspect we will and then she changes again when she returns to work, I'll have some big decisions to make. But the way I've been feeling for the last couple weeks, those decisions are appearing to be easier and easier.
Talk to ya soon.
Hope4us
Me - 49, W 49 S22 & S18 Dday 9/4/07 W claims NC 4/7/08 8/29/09 - Divorce Busted. Lots to work through, but we're going to make it.
