Never a good day for anyone. I believe its even a loss for those who had wanted the divorce to begin with.

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I've been gradually healing for several months and I will continue to. But, I've felt the emotion rollercoaster off and on all day anyway


I felt this too. Its like the 'finality' of it might send you into a bit of a panic if you thought too hard about it. But you are right, you have healed a lot already and will continue to. Don't be surprised if you roller coaster up and down a bit for a month (or even longer). The focus of the day-to-day divorce stuff (paperwork, phone calls, etc) is gone, so you might have more time on your hands to think. Its ok!

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I can't kid myself and pretend I'm ok.


You aren't ok, and guess what? That's ok. \:\) Don't pretend anything. And don't worry, the sadness is there, but it won't last long. You sound very positive and that will help you a lot!

Take care!

PS: Didn't the courtroom/divorce proceedings just seem so surreal? Like a movie, or a foggy dream? Very odd, huh?