Beyond Surviving- Living Life Again

[Loving_Life]

Well, my D took place today, final D granted. Stbx finally had no changes to the paperwork and just hours before the hearing papers were signed. Court went smoothly, nothing but 'yes I agree' from both me and stbx and it was over in less than 30 min. That is thankful I suppose.

I'm sure no one has a great D day. Feeling a little stunned, although I must focus on the fact that nothing has really changed all the sudden in my day to day life. I've been gradually healing for several months and I will continue to. But, I've felt the emotion rollercoaster off and on all day anyway. Now it's final, done, over- piece of the past. The whys, the sadness, the 'I'm never going through this again' feelings are too overwhelming if I let them.... I can't kid myself and pretend I'm ok.

Then in moments for a second I feel a cloud lifted- no more strings I'm offically off on my new path and it's going to be ok.

Thanks to anyone who has thoughts for me today....