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[AFWAW]

Mel,
Good to hear from you. Hope everything has been good. I am still on my emotional rollercoaster. My wife is still calling me and we are going on a date this saturday night. I still don't know what to expect but have come to the conclusion that I'm going to be spinning my wheels if I can't let her go and act like we are already divorced. I just for the life of me can't let go and I don't know why. She occupies my thoughts 95% of the time I'm awake. I don't know what the answer is. I wish you did. As far as her buying furniture, I don't know. Someone mentioned that she is good at pushing my buttons--she is. I made a call today and found out the company in VA that I could work for. If this progresses in a negative manner then I will pursue this option more aggresively. Really disturbing to me was that my daughter asked me what I would think if she wanted to live with the wife? I was honest--I told her I would be hurt. She asked why--I told her that it just would, I honestly didn't know what to say.

I'm going to try to have a good time on my date with the wife this weekend. I don't know what will happen but I'm going to try and keep it light. If she brings up the relationship, I want to ask her how long she needs. I know this is probably against DB but I need to know. I want to know if she is willing to come home after that time. I want to know what she is going to do if I get orders. I know these are inappropriate questions but I still want to know them. I've been contemplating asking them for a while now. Work's going a little better but I'm still bored. I'm considering starting my masters back up in May but I still don't feel like doing anything. This is all just so damn confusing still.