WAW Affair Confirmed - Advice?

[DCBHM]

Well, to her face I've been nothing but nice and supportive. Even after learning about the A I told her I'm not angry, and was sitting here waiting to work on the M.

My two sons live with me. Assuming she straightens her life out, it depends on how I feel at that time. If she ends our M like this, it is hard for me to want to go through it again.

I've made it clear I'm sitting here, not begging or pleading, but openly expressing love and compassion despite what she has done.

So far she hasn't jumped for that, and I'll be fine either way I know... I do deserve better, and my children deserve better. That being said - she has a chance prior to the D being final to make amends.

I think she probably feels the guilt is too much. She can't trust the unconditional love I've put forth, because it seems unnatural to her. I'm not hung up about the A, I feel sorry for what has happened in her life, and I'm sitting here willing to stand by her, get her help, etc.

There aren't many people who would take the abuse I've taken in stride and be willing to open my heart still. But even that has its limits, and eventually I won't be able or willing to put myself out there again.

I have faith that things will turn out as they should. Whatever happens I know it will be for the best. If we aren't meant to be H and W, I'm hopeful that she will get the help she needs.