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[Jayce]

Bagheera, no it wasn't fun for you to be in the way of a volcanic eruption like that. I keep thinking that if it were me with the problem, I'd be doing everything I possibly could to fix it. But I'm a fixer by nature. He's a hider by nature and a bit of a quitter. He kind of plays a sympathy card in a way when he does the hangdog stuff about being sorry cuz he upsets me. I don't feel one bit sorry for him that he feels bad for upsetting me. Jeez. Especially because he's done it so often & knows how not to do it.

Got a little more into Resurrecting Sex. Found out I'm doing the right thing. Standing up for what I want, how I want to live and through both of us being out of our comfort zones we'll find new ways to deal with it all. Standing up doesn't get me out of my comfort zone, the fear of going without sex the rest of my life sure does tho.

We'll be off to sunny beaches in Mexico in 4 more days. I'm hoping its not a replay of 5 yrs ago when we didn't ML the whole week. He kept falling asleep at 10. He doesn't seem to get that's what vacations, getaway weekends are for, besides just a change of scene. Wish us luck.
Jayce