"I don't wanna spend my life jaded, waiting...

[theotherhalf]

don't have to ask myself why I am doing this. Like I said last night. I have NO other option right now. NC is what is best for me right now in order to find me again and to heal from these last 2 years of pure hell. I am not to worried about him asking anything right now. He's really staying away completely. And for my H it would show weakness or that he cares to ask, something he won't do. At least I don't think so. But I did wonder what to say if he does. And worried that he might take this "new" me as trying to punish him or playing games.

thanks naej