The scout unit or council has a record of any badge already earned. Books do get lost. Good scout leaders understand these trying times and will be glad to help you recreate what they can.
You are not the person now that you would have been by choosing to "Ditch The B!!ch" on the first sign of trouble. That is not you. You will face all kinds of unsolicited drama and second life challenges very well. You will solve scouting challenges. You will confront and conquer many things you never imagined you would face. You will do it with honor, and when you look back later you will be proud to have done your best.
Your best will be better than most others and it will serve you well.
