It's Complicated! Part 4

[glamgirl]

SC thanks for that wonderful post. I would love to meet you too, so keep me posted as to when you are passing through.

Stella I am so sorry for both of our pain. Life just doesn't seem fair, but maybe we can be content in knowing that we are not alone. Thanks for that inspirational post. So I did dress myself up today and spent some me time just on me!

Thanks Peace and TOH for stopping by.

We really don't know what is in our futures, but I do know that for now I must move on ahead. You are right Snodderly and SC in that my h could run along and want to catch up. Right now I don't see that happening, nor do I want to have false hope. I am putting one foot in front of the other and moving on the best that I can. Not even sure what that means at the moment.

Unfortunately I am a romantic. I always wanted my h to be the knight in shining armour to come swooping in and solve all of our problems and tell me how much he loves me and that he wants to be with me forever, but more than saying it I wanted my h to show it to me. Well, as you all know I am still waiting. It will all be ok though. This is not what I wanted for my m, nor for my kids lives, but it's the card I am holding at the moment.

I did go to the gym and workout today. That made me feel good. I am also trying to eat really healthy. I am really trying to up my cardio.

Haven't heard from h today, even though he said see you on Tuesday. I see that I missed a call from him last night. Oh well, trying not to concern myself with what he is doing.

I don't really understand WHY my h can't just come forward and tell the truth. The part he doesn't realize is that the lies do much more damage than the truth. At least when there is honesty then you have something to work and build off of, with lies you have nothing. I guess I should thank God for my own honesty. It's really easy for me to face others and just be truthful. I know that is what I would expect from them and would want to recipricate that respect.